I AM A RECOVERING EMOTIONAL BYPASSER.
I have been straight up IN my feels today; it’s partially just part of where I am cyclically right now. It’s also the result of an extremely intense emotional clearing journey and a completely healing vacation time.
Emotions were something considered to be a weakness. I don’t remember ever being told that, but my mom, being a single mother, just wanted to protect me from her own worries and stress and would never express anything besides joy.
I never really learned until adulthood to healthily deal. I never understood emotions to be things that pass through us and that I wouldn’t be trapped in the “negative” emotions forever if I allowed myself to feel them.
So I ate, over-ate, and stuffed those emotions down. I kept a minute-by-minute busy schedule. (I kid you not. In college especially, when I had complete control over my schedule, EVERY minute was accounted for.) I read for hours on end, keeping my mind busy in a myriad of ways- anything to keep me from having to feel.
Appreciating my partner for holding me in all of this today. And, of course, because of my particular gifts, called upon Artemis Herself for more strength.
Unexpressed emotions are added weight on our bodies...AND our souls. When we carry that weight, we are carrying it into ALL aspects of our lives.
Feel the emotions through. Release the weight. Enjoy life. Rinse and repeat.
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